i just wished....

always wanted to call you mine,
but a lil concern if you would mind.
qns after qns linger in my mind,
but i'm always a lil too shy.
u are too good for a guy,
i'm such a fool for u to fly(away).
hope it wont be a goodbye,
but instead always be with a smile.
'i hate you' would be a lie,
but 'i ___ you' would be our favourite line...

remember this poem i did last year?

haha......

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mom dad,

i love you both.

& i think i love you soo much that i just cant seem to leave you behind.

i'm sorry for being the spoilt one.

well, mom.

i'm sorry i can't fulfil your wish.

i can't force myself to take him.

i can't go on deceiving anyone anymore.

let it be.let it grow.let it take its time.

on its own.

sometimes the truth kills.

even to someone who doesn't know what to do.who to tell.when to take action.

i just wished i could tell the secret to someone i really trust.someone who will understand.someone who will take care of me.someone who will stand in front of me.someone who will back me up. TO TELL THE TRUTH.

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have a nice day everyone.

baa baa black sheep have you any wool?
yes sir yes sir, three bags full.
all for my mother who wants to make pillow for me laaaa..


HAHAHAHA...k im bored..


to CARMEN,

all my life i have always been thinking.why.yes of course everyone is different.but it seems like i am totally the weirdest of all.i dono how to talk,i dono why mind is always a blank whenever i wana try to talk something or reply to anyone.i just think that im a sicko in head.a sadist who doesnt understand jokes and never laugh but try to laugh anyway and make myself look even more stupid.seriously.i just felt like im an empty statue.in fact i am envy of those who can talk.but anyway,thanks for giving me the advices.thanks to you and najihah ya!

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well anw today's busking was hmm...sucky for the first slot but great for the second one(at least i was enjoying myself)
i dono who initiated for us to stand at the entrance of the RPC walkway.the response from the crowd was bad coz it's either they(students going for smoke break) just walked pas or they(the others:like apek, nyonya from dono where) just stared at us.
then the second slot was great.the timing and location gave us more motivation and confidence.HAHA.
i dont think im gona quit BE.coz that's my passion.n im gona continue learning the other instruments!! wheee...

long entry aye...gona end it with a song....

twinkle twinkle little star
how i wonder what you are
HAHAH...im sleepy laaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa

bye.