wheeeeeeee!!!

korang korang!! jom pegi lagi!!!

harlow

and so today went to CGH with mum to have a checkup..didnt think that it would be serious but as soon as i told the doctor what happened in the last few days, she said...

" all right..we're gona put in a camera into your nose n see what's inside!"

before putting in the look-like-snake-kind-of-camera into my nostril, she spray something into both side of my nose to numb it. seriously i really felt like sneezing onto her face and vomit it out coz it taste damn weird....

and then, she said....

"it's gona taste like poison but it's otey to swallow it...go on..taste it!"

and then she said...

"hmm...inside your nose usually the tissue will be smaller as you grow..but...yours is so big for a 20 year old! it's the normal size for a 7 year old..."

i was like errr....is that all right or...?

and then she took a stick which really look like a normal stick that has the size of a vitagen straw..she puts it into my nostril..

"now it's gona pain a little like spicy kind of feeling in your nose..i'm gona burn...(don't know what coz i was like shocked when i heard she said she's gona burn my nose?!)....."

till now my nose is in pain...like some pedih/burning sensation u noe? don't know? nvm... n the water is flowing non-setop!!!

and then she said...

"we're gona have a close monitor on you....if there's no changes..we're gona take the tissue inside your nose to test what it is..."

so..that means..im gona have an operation? hmmm....


"wait...does your family have cancer backgrd?...."

it couldn't be that serious?


can i have Po with me Doctor? please??

may you rest in peace. Hafiz Bean

i was shocked..till now i havent talked to anyone.what i saw in the malay newpaper early this morning was certainly something least expected.

a friend who 'took care' of me during the ndp practice early this year.

a friend whom i've started to feel close to.

a friend who was the first guy to sms me for so long.

a friend who just won't listen to advices.

a friend who always insisted i ride on his bike.

and now he's gone..yeap to join the others in heaven.nothing ever could explain my feeling i had when i saw the news about his accident.i kept crying and crying till i fell asleep.though we never meet for so long.we were still in contact and it was just a few days ago that we last messaged each other.

well, may you sleep well as what you've wanted and told your mom.

**tsk tsk tsk i wana spit at your face

its 1.33 am now..was listening to RIA...n i heard my aunt's voice...(Mak Bibah) acting fiza's mom..hhaahha..."piza tkde kat sini lagi..." hahahha..

i was thinking..what is happening to the world now.

particularly to that someone from the past.

she came, she "helped/"cheered" us all (even my grandparents)

n then something happened..

n then she's gone.

just like that.

in between she told BIG lies.

too big that we thought it's too good to be true.

imagine a typical indonesian drama..

orphan, sick, aunts and uncles want her money.

typical isn't it?

well, that was 'her story'

we thought its otey...give her a chance..maybe she is sick.maybe it is happening in the real world after all..

but all her photos she showed us..its fake.seriously.having someone skinny and tall to be you when you were 19? and few years later you turn out like a.....and SHORT.

haha...funny..and then..you were..*never mind this part. its too private for my family.*

and pooof! you are gone just like that..

you left your things here.

FINE.

but now?

YOU'RE FUCKING BACK!

orh...why not come here? we'll welcome you with big hugs...NOT!

after what you've done to my family, my grandparents and my uncle..

you dare to come back.. for what??

guess guys!

to dstrb/harass us again!

prank calls my grandparents and uncles.

WHAT FUCKING DO YOU WANT BITCH?!