there's too many things that is happening around me.i cant seem to focus anymore.not like before.i just can't be like before.there's no aim.no goals.no motivation.no energy.nothing at all.i'm simply wasting my time,my day by day.

tomorrow's the big day.the show that we've all been waiting for.the show we've practiced for months.but now, here i am sitting blogging, feeling like there's something that need to be done, but i just don't know what it is.i seem to be rushing.to get it done.but do what?

the fever just don't wana go away.the headache is always there.

how can i tell you what i'm feeling.the truth.everybody seems to be pushing me onto you.but everyone just don't seem to understand.well, i don't understand it myself.why am i so different.the fact that i can't be like others.i know it'll be like losing a gold or even life if i lose you.you are just too good for me.seriously i don't wana hurt anyone around me.not you, not my mom.but how am i supposed to tell you straight,it's just not the right time yet?

argh!

well, the results are out.went for checkup the other day.and it's all because of you. yes you, PO! hahaha..no i don't have any sickness.i don't have cancer.NO! hahha..it's just because of that dust in PO who haven't bathe for i'm not sure how long.you see, the dusts will all come into my nose who happens to be so sensitive that it'll get swollen and then i'll have difficulty breathing.i'm not too clear about why it always bled though.haha.so no need for worries!

now mom's by my side watching kittens on youtube.the ironic thing about me is, i loveeee cats but i'm scared of them! heehee..k off to bed now!

wish me luck for tmr!